I recorded this on September 2, 2022 using my voice memos and thought it would be nice to publish here.
Today I saw for the first time and with my own eyes
The things my friends were trying to show me
The things they had seen way before I had even seen it
I remember the days when I was too afraid to talk, to speak, to say what was going on
And I thought it was because I wanted privacy.
But now I know, when you can’t talk about it there’s shame
Shame and fear and pain and hurt and so much more… and now
I can see all the things everyone else wanted me to see.
And it took a long time, It took a lot of growing up.
It took telling myself, that it was okay to open my eyes and that I’d be fine no matter what.
So today, I opened my eyes and looked up.
I saw the thing that scared me the most and I was okay.
I took a leap, – starts crying- and I took the jump and guess what?
I’m okay.
Samantha Johnson
